Doubts, you kinky freaks, I’m filled with doubts. What did you think the title meant? Wait, don’t tell me, I can guess. 😉
Welcome to Wicked Wednesday and this week’s prompt is doubts.
Between Daddy and myself, I have no doubts. I know it won’t always be perfect and wonderful, but I’m not worried. We can work through anything together.
Professionally, though? I’m filled with them. My self-doubts slow me down. They keep me from writing and publishing. They stop me from marketing myself more. In my mind, I’ll never be good enough, and the only way I push forward is by reminding myself that I don’t need the whole world to think I’m a good writer, just a few people.
I’m pretty good at hiding my doubts. I’ve picked up new vanilla clients to write for, I’m working on a kinky writing project for someone. I wouldn’t have that much if I allowed my doubts to show, but they are definitely there.
My doubts are fueled by the pressure I put on myself to be the best I can be, and when I see (countless) others who are better writers, I immediately withdraw and don’t want to do anything because I don’t think I’m good enough – or I worry someone will realize I’m not as good as they think I am.
The more I feel my doubts, the more I procrastinate and slow down. I become low energy and just want to take a nap. (Napping doesn’t pay the bills!)
But then I sit down to write (because deadlines and money), and I become consumed with the topic. I forget everything as I look for the exact right way to craft a sentence and structure a paragraph. I feel good when I connect two points or find a unique way of saying the same old thing. The doubts melt away and all that’s left is me…and my words.
Do I ever get this! I’m still learning to power through the bad feelings though. Doubts suck, but they can be awesome motivators.
They can be, but first I have to go through the cycle of slowing down before I can speed back up and push through them.
Everyone has doubts about something at some point in their life. What matters is not letting your doubts overcome you.
I try, Daddy, I do. Sometimes…well…UGH!
That’s why you have me around to reset you like last night 😉
Rawr! You’re very right, Daddy.
You are amazing friend, and you can do anything you set your mind to do. Don’t let doubt control you….you control your doubt!
Love and hugs, Mynx
I’m trying, Mynxie, I am. ((HUGS))
whatever you do, have faith and believe in yourself !
Thank you. 🙂
Doubt can be an amazing motivator! Just remember to channel and communicate your doubts to those that you trust and they will ease your mind to allow you the space to create. You can write, it’s just sometimes your mind plays tricks on you.
The mind is a tricky, tricky bastard that’s for sure.
I am definitely more motivated than I was before – not sure if it was the reassurance of a good man or his flogger, but either way, it worked. 🙂
Oh I recognize so many of these feelings, especially those of doubting whether my writing is good enough. You should have more confidence in yourself. Your writing is beautiful 🙂
/blush. Thank you!
Sometimes I read my words, and I think, “Damn, that’s good!” And sometimes, the words just all seem to run together and sound like everything else I’ve ever written. I’m sure that’s a common problem of all writers.
I think most all of us can relate to your feelings in some way. Good luck on your writings.
Thank you. And I’m sure you’re right.
Kayla, Talking about doubts … What if you suddenly begin to fancy gals in a more sexual way?… Has it happened to you?
Best wishes, Aquileana 😛
It’s not happened to me with any specific person, but the idea appeals to me. It’s not something that would happen easily or quickly as I have trust issues with anyone, but definitely women (goes back to the mean girl days of school).