As I sit here, with a collar around my neck and an assignment to complete before I can sleep, I find myself unequal to the task to convey this night. I have a feeling this will have to come in bits and pieces over the next few days.
Let me first say that I am safe and very happy. My Sir treated me like His slut, His whore, His queen. He checked in with me constantly, even when I was determined to take every bit of what he gave. He brought me to tears. He made me cum. He held me when I became overwhelmed.
I entered subspace and in my extremely limited experience, I think there may be layers to subspace. Twice, I found that I could not hold a thought in my head but I could sense everything going on around me. I could not move. I could not think. And I did not care. The third time, I was completely gone – somewhere – and when He brought me back, I could not walk, I could barely talk, and I trembled violently for several minutes.
Not everything we planned actually happened. But everything that happened changed me. I am not the same woman I was when I woke up this morning. I am not the woman filled with nerves and fears over what might happen. I am the woman who knows exactly what will happen. I know how my Sir will react and how He will treat me.
Tonight, I do not have the words to adequately describe everything. Tonight, I am His submissive, and I am happy.
Wao this sounds truly wonderful. So happy for you 🙂
🙂 Amazing how total submission equates to total freedom, isn’t it?
That it is… 🙂
You are making me ache to meet mine. 🙁
I am a little jealous of you. Not because you have something I want, but because you are experiencing this the way I would like to as well. I am happy for you though. We all deserve this. Maybe one day I will be so lucky. You never know. I try not to think about it.
I’m not sure how I’m so fortunate to have this experience the first time, but I am happy and I know I’m lucky…
I hope you will be as fortunate as I am! ((Hugs))
Me too. Although…I don’t really know if that will ever happen. I am not even sure if I am still his.
That’s a horrible feeling! I am so sorry!! (hugs)
Thank you. Yes it sucks.
I’m very glad it went well! Part of me longs to experience something like this, but another part of me isn’t sure I can be that vulnerable. I’ll live vicariously through you.
I have been told it takes a lot of strength to be submissive…I don’t know how true that is…but I do know it’s the most natural feeling in the world…
As someone who has lived vicariously through others for years, come along with me…I don’t mind… 🙂
Very nice, really awesome.