Today is my one year WordPress/Kayla Lords Anniversary! Where’s my cake? My glitter and confetti and banners? I thought there’d be fireworks…
To think that one year ago today, my hands were clammy at the mere thought of writing about my first experience masturbating since I was a teenager, and today, I revel in every squirty, gushy orgasm I share with you all here.
A year ago, I was shy with my own body, unsure of the reactions and sensations I felt and caused. Today, I can and will call a man Sir…Daddy, too. Yes, there’s been a new development in my submissive nature – that’s for another day. Today, I squeal and clap my hands at the promise of a spanking. Today, I am a different woman than one year ago.
Then, I furtively read kinky erotic, cheeks grew flushed because I was so turned on and confused. Then I lurked on Tumblr, mortified that I couldn’t get enough of seeing women tied up, hooks in their ass, their pussies slapped until red and hot.
Now? Oh, now I read something deliciously kinky and I think, I want to try that! Now when I see some dirty picture or gif on Tumblr, I’m inspired to write something – or I become instantly wet.
Life is so much different than a year ago.
I was once afraid of my own body. I was unsure of my own desires. I didn’t understand myself.
Now, I cum in great gushing squirts. I wear pigtails and knee socks, holding Mr. Teddy close at night. I avert my eyes and ask for permission to touch myself.
I have loved and lost. I have been shattered into a million pieces and forced to glue myself back together. I have had to bravely face a world of D/s alone, looking for someone who would walk in it with me. I’m not exactly alone anymore.
In a year, I learned that I am a submissive, a pet, a little one, a babygirl, and one hell of a sexual being.
It’s amazing how much can change in a year.