Submissive Writing

A Year Ago

Today is my one year WordPress/Kayla Lords Anniversary! Where’s my cake? My glitter and confetti and banners? I thought there’d be fireworks…

To think that one year ago today, my hands were clammy at the mere thought of writing about my first experience masturbating since I was a teenager, and today, I revel in every squirty, gushy orgasm I share with you all here.

A year ago, I was shy with my own body, unsure of the reactions and sensations I felt and caused. Today, I can and will call a man Sir…Daddy, too. Yes, there’s been a new development in my submissive nature – that’s for another day. Today, I squeal and clap my hands at the promise of a spanking. Today, I am a different woman than one year ago.

Then, I furtively read kinky erotic, cheeks grew flushed because I was so turned on and confused. Then I lurked on Tumblr, mortified that I couldn’t get enough of ย seeing women tied up, hooks in their ass, their pussies slapped until red and hot.ย 

Now? Oh, now I read something deliciously kinky and I think, I want to try that! Now when I see some dirty picture or gif on Tumblr, I’m inspired to write something – or I become instantly wet.

Life is so much different than a year ago.

I was once afraid of my own body. I was unsure of my own desires. I didn’t understand myself.

Now, I cum in great gushing squirts. I wear pigtails and knee socks, holding Mr. Teddy close at night. I avert my eyes and ask for permission to touch myself.ย 

I have loved and lost. I have been shattered into a million pieces and forced to glue myself back together. I have had to bravely face a world of D/s alone, looking for someone who would walk in it with me. I’m not exactly alone anymore.

In a year, I learned that I am a submissive, a pet, a little one, a babygirl, and one hell of a sexual being.

 

It’s amazing how much can change in a year.

 

About the author

Kayla Lords

I am an erotic author, sex blogger, podcaster, freelance writer, an opinionated marketer, and speaker. You can find me online sharing my innermost sexual thoughts and experiences, teaching other bloggers how to make money writing about sex, and helping kinksters have healthy BDSM relationships. I'm also a masochistic babygirl submissive with an amazing and sadistic Daddy Dom and business partner, John Brownstone. Welcome to my kinky corner of the internet!

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