Today is my one year WordPress/Kayla Lords Anniversary! Where’s my cake? My glitter and confetti and banners? I thought there’d be fireworks…
To think that one year ago today, my hands were clammy at the mere thought of writing about my first experience masturbating since I was a teenager, and today, I revel in every squirty, gushy orgasm I share with you all here.
A year ago, I was shy with my own body, unsure of the reactions and sensations I felt and caused. Today, I can and will call a man Sir…Daddy, too. Yes, there’s been a new development in my submissive nature – that’s for another day. Today, I squeal and clap my hands at the promise of a spanking. Today, I am a different woman than one year ago.
Then, I furtively read kinky erotic, cheeks grew flushed because I was so turned on and confused. Then I lurked on Tumblr, mortified that I couldn’t get enough of seeing women tied up, hooks in their ass, their pussies slapped until red and hot.
Now? Oh, now I read something deliciously kinky and I think, I want to try that! Now when I see some dirty picture or gif on Tumblr, I’m inspired to write something – or I become instantly wet.
Life is so much different than a year ago.
I was once afraid of my own body. I was unsure of my own desires. I didn’t understand myself.
Now, I cum in great gushing squirts. I wear pigtails and knee socks, holding Mr. Teddy close at night. I avert my eyes and ask for permission to touch myself.
I have loved and lost. I have been shattered into a million pieces and forced to glue myself back together. I have had to bravely face a world of D/s alone, looking for someone who would walk in it with me. I’m not exactly alone anymore.
In a year, I learned that I am a submissive, a pet, a little one, a babygirl, and one hell of a sexual being.
It’s amazing how much can change in a year.
Happy One Year Anniversary! Hope you have many more.
Thank you! So do I!
Oh Kayla, what a year it’s been for you. I’m so happy that I found you. That I call you friend. That you write on the subject of being sexual. Being proud of what you are. Because you have, I’ve become more comfortable in my skin. I know that some of my desires are justified. That I’m okay. Thank you for every word and story. And every damn confession. Love you darling.
If that’s all I accomplish, helping you and any one else feel ok about your desires, then life is pretty damn awesome. 🙂
Love you too!!
“It’s amazing how much can change in a year.”
I’ve been reflecting on that all day.
Not all change is bad…and not all change is good. Change is change. It’s sometimes hard for me to remember that…
Happy Anniversary, sounds like it’s been quite the year with a lot of learning and growth. Raising a glass to many more!
Thank you! Yes, many, many more!
Happy one year. And many more. 🙂
Happy Anniversary! I’m so happy that you’ve experienced such growth. 🙂 It really is a big step to make that first post, to write that first story, or to admit that you LIKE that stuff. It’s also great fun.
The only problem with a 1st anniversary though is you only get 1 spank!
Thankfully, I didn’t have to observe that 1 spank tradition…/giggle!
Bravo, Kayla! Congratulations on one hell of a milestone and a wonderful shift in perspective on yourself! 🙂
Thank you! I feel a little bit like a new woman. 🙂
Happy Anniversary. Truly amazing what a year can do. Its an honor to follow your writing and adventures, I wish you the very best in the day,weeks and years to come.
🙂 Thank you!!!
Congrats! Here’s to many more years. 🙂
What is it with this date? Your 1 yr anniversary, LK & Husdom’s 1 year D/s anniversary and it’s my Sir’s and my 1 year anniversary that we declared that no longer will sex be an issue. That I will always be available to him and desire him.And so our D/s journey began…without a name at first…but I gave him my submission and he rose up as my Dominant. Every word you wrote resonates with me. Congratulations!
I guess spring was in the air last year! 🙂 I like that I’m in good company with my journey! Congrats to you and your Sir!
Happy anniversary and more importantly, happy discovery!
🙂 Thank you! There’s still so much more to discover – I can’t WAIT!
Yayy!! Happy Anniversary!! It’s quite an accomplishment!
Thank you!! 🙂
Happy Anniversary! I loved reading all about you and I hope you continue on. 🙂
I can’t imagine stopping now. 🙂
Hi, Kayla. Because you make me horny with style, I have nominated you for The Sensual Blogger Award: http://blacktheo.wordpress.com
Mmmm, making you horny with style – I like it!
Happy Anniversary Kayla,
I have just started to follow your blog. I look forward to celebrating another anniverary with you.
Oh yay!! Welcome!!
Happy bloggy anniversary. I love to see how much you have grown. What a year. 🙂
What a year, is right. 🙂
I know… I feel so special to “know” you for what 3/4 of it? 🙂