Damn, I should be in bed asleep. I have a long day, week, month, life ahead of me. But one final post, because it’s important to me. I need to share this.
I used to hear this song as a break-up anthem. You did me wrong, and I see it now, and I won’t be fooled again. Ever since it came out. I even mentioned it as the way I saw the beginning of the end of my marriage.
Perceptions change, drastically sometimes. I heard it today on my way home, and it’s a completely new song to me now. It’s bittersweet.
I am not an angry woman with a broken heart. I am not an overtly sad little girl who is shattered on the floor. I am a strong submissive woman. I am awake – not to a failed or bad relationship, but to a new reality. And it’s okay.
I have picked myself up off of the concrete. And for the really curious, I will post about this in more detail later, I promise. A full reckoning is coming.
[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-3D5FwwtNVM]Wide Awake – Katy Perry
I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart
I’m wide awake
How did I read the stars so wrong?
I’m wide awake
And now it’s clear to me
That everything you see
Ain’t always what it seems
I’m wide awake
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long
[Pre-Chorus]
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn’t dive in
Wouldn’t bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
‘Til I woke up on
On the concrete
[Chorus]
Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
I’m letting go tonight
Yeah, I’m falling from cloud 9
I’m wide awake
Not losing any sleep
I picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
I’m wide awake
Need nothing to complete myself, no
I’m wide awake
Yeah, I am born again
Out of the lion’s den
I don’t have to pretend
And it’s too late
The story’s over now, the end
[Pre-Chorus]
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn’t dive in
Wouldn’t bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
‘Til I woke up on
On the concrete
[Chorus]
Falling from cloud 9 (it was out of the blue)
I’m crashing from the high
I’m letting go tonight (yeah, I’m letting you go)
I’m falling from cloud 9
I’m wide awake
Thunder rumbling
Castles crumbling
I’m wide awake
I am trying to hold on
I’m wide awake
God knows that I tried
Seeing the bright side
I’m wide awake
But I’m not blind anymore…
I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
[Chorus]
Yeah, I’m falling from cloud 9 (it was out of the blue)
I’m crashing from the high
You know I’m letting go tonight (yeah, I’m letting you go)
I’m falling from cloud 9
I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
when you’re in a down mood, you should listen or watch something to cheer you up, you have to make the choice to make yourself happy!
Of course you should. This song came on the radio…and I heard it with a different heart and mind than before…
Yes, you should have been asleep. 😉
I look forward to the long post.
I am not sorry to have dived in or bowed down. I loved that. Not crazy about the concrete part of the package, though. 🙂 But concrete certainly has its purpose.
Concrete sucks. But if you survive it, you’re stronger than ever before.
I love this song….and you are strong …..now go to sleep…..lol
It was ironic…the song and me being wide ass awake late at night…lol…I’d love to go back to bed…
I love this song…
I hit like for that… Not that you were awake thinking. 🙁
It happens all the time…the wide awake, thinking part. I’m almost used to it. 🙂
I so hear you… Sucks when our minds don’t let us relax… 🙁
I’m sure the fact that I’m an over-thinker contributes to that…