I admit that I fall deep into my own head – quickly, easily, and sometimes to a bad end. It happened this morning, driving down the road.
My thoughts swirled from one self-loathing thought to the next. I could feel panic rising up. I gripped the steering wheel tighter. My breathing became erratic.
I knew the thoughts leading to this feeling were irrational.
I also knew I’d been okay earlier this morning, and I’d be okay after this moment passed. But right that minute, I was spiraling.
And then a song came on. A song that always makes me want to dance and shimmy. A song that never fails to cheer me up. Somehow, it cut through the fog. I smiled. I swayed. I sang. For a moment, I forgot.
While it was playing, there was no room for anxious thoughts and panic. After, my mind was a little clearer – although that choked feeling persists.
A song can’t fix me, but I’ll take the distraction it provided.