The pain from before is lessening. The heartache is from a different time. The depth of my feelings is no different, but it’s bittersweet instead of intensely painful. Every so often, I want to come out swinging, instead of hiding away and licking my wounds.
Do you have any idea what you walked away from? Do you know what you’re missing out on?
I love with my whole heart, my whole being. I give 110% every single day. I dote, I tend, I care, I spoil. I submit.
I’m still standing strong when others run away.
I’m a pillar of strength in the middle of a storm.
I’m loving and tender. I’m sexual and wanton. Hell, when the rest of the world wants to sleep, I desperately want to worship cock and give pleasure until my eyes won’t stay open.
I hate liars, cheats, and thieves. I demand honesty. I earn trust. I shoot straight, but I care enough to protect feelings.
I cry with the ones I love, and I cry for them. I hold on tight, and I stand guard, protective.
I nurture. I cherish. I serve. I give.
Not every woman loves the way I love.
I’m a goddamned catch. Any man would be lucky to call me his. And one day, a man will come along and be smart enough to never let me go.
That’s what I was thinking, too. 🙂
A very smart and lucky man he will be indeed.
Too many men get caught ul in their own sbit. They take advantage of a good woman because their walkin around with blinders on. You will find one that will treat you like you want and deserve. We are not all the same. 🙂
I am slowly realizing that.
But even the good ones can get it wrong – that was probably the biggest lesson I had to learn in the past year.
Fairy tales aside I really think that we all have more than one perfect match. It’s the must not’s and must be’s that cause us all the problems. All these criteria set us up for failure before we start besides there is nothing wrong with Mr/Ms right now either.
When we allow others expectations of how we should live our life ahead of our own you really have to question who your living for.
Being in this lifestyle the reward can be greater but the pain deeper for the very same reasons, trust, devotion, openness all expose a tender part of us.
Someone who understands what D/s means in a relationship more so than just playtime is a rare thing. Until that person appears In your life don’t forget to live a little each day
I can honestly say that I am living like a little more than I was a few months ago…I laugh more often, I cum more often, I have more fun.
But every once in a while, I get sad about what I’ve lost, because I know it was something special. And I get tired of being sad, so I let myself get angry…it’s the healthiest thing I know to do, writing it out like I do…
But I am a lot better than I used to be… 🙂
That is great news.
It feels strange to admit, though…almost like a betrayal of what I had before…and that really is never far from my mind…but yes, I have found a bit of joy in the world again…
“I’m a goddamned catch. Any man would be lucky to call me his. And one day, a man will come along and be smart enough to never let me go.”
Yes, you are. 🙂
/blush. Thank you.
You are so welcome. 🙂