Who is babygirl? Is she me? Is she a figment of my imagination? Is she an idealized version of my little side? Is this how I talk about my submissive side now?
To me, this is how most view my babygirl. And by the way, if you're unsure, this is Boo and Sully from Monsters, Inc. As a little girl, I looked just like Boo (the one dangling in the air). When I put my pigtails in (and take off my glasses), I'm simply an older version of her.
I feel like I do this sometimes, too.
Here's the epitome of how I view babygirl when she's disgruntled:
And this, more than anything is what babygirl needs most nights before she closes her eyes:
But who is babygirl? What does she want?
I can't say whether she's me or a side of me or a figment of my imagination. I'm not sure. I'm not in a position to be a babygirl to find out for myself, so I think it's safe to say she's an aspect of who I am but that I'm creating a lot of her from my imagination.
But what does she want? She wants to feel safe and protected, cared for and cherished. She wants to be pushed outside of her comfort zone by someone who only has her best interests at heart, who knows she's capable of far more than she realizes. She wants to be used sexually - hard and rough. She wants to cry and be marked. She wonders about humiliation. She needs a firm hand to guide her, but regardless of her sassy side, she desperately wants to be a good girl.
At the end of the day or night, when she's been used until she can no longer move, when she's covered in cum, bruises, stripes, and all manners of marks, that's when she wants to be folded into strong arms and treated like a princess. She needs to be taught that it's ok to be treated well, simply because it pleases her Sir to do so. She needs to realize that sometimes its ok not to have "earned" kind treatment and that it is freely given.
Babygirl wants a safe place to explore all the different parts of herself. She wants to serve. She wants to kneel. She wants to feel an all-consuming passion and know that she is adored as equally as she adores.
Babygirl wants it all.