I have moments where it still hits me. Even now. Three months later. Yes, it’s been three months. Most people will say time has flown by. I wish I could say the same. Every time I think I’m doing fine, that I’ve figured out my feelings, something catches me at the “right” moment, and I’m lost again.
[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qgp7hlkfstI]“He Won’t Go” = Adele
But they don’t know you like I do
Or at least the sides I thought I knew
I can’t beg this time
It drags on as I lose my mind
Reminded by things I find
Like notes and clothes you left behind
Wake me up, wake me up when all is done
I won’t rise until this battle’s won
My dignity’s become undone
But I won’t go
I can’t do it on my own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I’m willing to take the risk
I won’t go
I can’t do it on my own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I’m willing to take the risk
So petrified, I’m so scared to step into this ride
What if I lose my heart and fail the climb?
I won’t forgive me if I give up trying
I heard his voice today
I didn’t know a single word he said
Not one resemblance to the man I met
Just a vacant broken boy instead
But I won’t go
I can’t do it on my own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I’m willing to take the risk
I won’t go
I can’t do it on my own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I am willing to take the risk
There will be times
We’ll try and give it up
Bursting at the seams, no doubt
We’ll almost fall apart then burn the pieces
To watch them turn to dust
But nothing will ever taint us
I won’t go
I can’t do it on my own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I’m willing to take the risk
I won’t go
I can’t do it on my own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I am willing to take the risk
Will he… will he still remember me?
Will he still love me even when he’s free?
Or will he go back to the place where he would choose the poison over me?
When we spoke yesterday,
He said to hold my breath and sit and wait
“I’ll be home so soon, I won’t be late”
He won’t go
He can’t do it on his own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
He’s willing to take the risk
So I won’t go
He can’t do it on his own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I’m willing to take the risk
Cause he won’t go
He can’t do it on his own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
We’re willing to take the risk
I won’t go
I can’t do it on my own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I’m willing to take the risk
I don’t know, Kayla. It sucks that it still hurts. It also speaks to his importance in your life. Trivial things don’t hurt when they go.
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I know, and you’re right. I’m trying to be strong…and most of the time, I am…music hits me more than anything else, though…and yet, I don’t turn it off…maybe that’s the fix…no more music…lol
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Music is so wonderful when you’re heart is breaking. Love and its aftermath inspire the very best artistic creations.
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Hugs. You will be fine, you are healing that’s all. Hang in there & think of your “hello kitty” shirt & giggle!! (; xoxo
Give me a few minutes, I’ll get back to that, I’m sure. ((hugs))
there will always be moments when he sneeks back into your head and rattles your heart. That is the curse and the blessing of falling in love.
Trust that you have done the same to someone out there, maybe even him.
Maybe so…maybe he does miss me…but why not just reach out? Unanswerable questions…
there are those in my life i miss dearly. But you learn to never go backwards. You always move forward even if it is painful.
I wish I was at the point where I considered having him back “going backwards” – maybe it would be easier if I did…
Hugs Kayla, it will get better. We can’t control when memories will hit us, but at least we still feel. Just don’t allow the sadness to consume you, there is always hope and tomorrow is a new day.
Tomorrow is always a new day.
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