Today was a hectic day, a stereotypical Monday in fact. I’ve spent my evening reading, commenting, liking, Tumblr-ing (is that a word?). I didn’t have anything worthwhile to blog about, and I figured it was perfectly ok to take a night off.
When I finally made it through the last post waiting to be read, and I commented on the last one that moved me, I finally remembered to look into my own blog. And even on a night when I don’t have anything to say there are people still coming to my little corner of the world and finding something to read, connecting in some way that suits them.
I saw in my stats that two people literally typed in the URL of my blog so they could read whatever it is they were looking for. That’s when the tears began to flow.
The best thing I ever did was allow myself to be Kayla Lords. I am becoming the person I’m supposed to be because of this space and the people I have encountered here. From my lion (sorry, but I’ll always think of him that way) to some of my most recent friendships, from the likers and commenters, to you silent lurkers who read and move on, without you, there would be no Kayla Lords. I would just be a random single mom of two living her vanilla life.
And I am overwhelmed with gratitude tonight for each and every one of you. Some of you will never know what you’ve done for me, what you’ve allowed me to do here, judgment free, and others are very aware. When I tell you I adore you all, I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
Thank you. For reading, for lurking, for liking, for genuinely caring about a faceless woman who really enjoys masturbating and raving like a lunatic about her feelings.
((Hug)) : )
Kayla Lords, it is an honor to meet you. I don’t think you are faceless, I can picture you, the vivid and truthful you, from all that I’ve been reading here 🙂
You always know exactly what to say. Thank you!
Reading your blog is a pleasure.
Why thank you! I enjoy your as well!
I have nominated you for the Liebster Blog award. http://journeyofsubmission.wordpress.com/2013/01/15/liebster-blog-award/
Thank you! That is so nice of you!!
It’s a pleasure! Unfortunately my post regarding the whole thing seems to have disappeared 🙁 I will redo it during the course of the day as soon as I get a chance!
I hate it when WordPress eats something!
Hahaha! That’s a brilliant way to put it 😀
I love you Kayla Lords. I’m so glad you’ve come out the shadows and found yourself. You’ve helped me find me. I’m so incredibly grateful.
((Hugs)) I love you too!
And by way, Facebook officially hates me. I tried to respond to your PM and it wouldn’t let me! Email me whenever you’d like…[email protected].
Thanks sweetheart I will. 🙂 FB is stupid. I have no idea why they block you and let others get away with murder. Yeesh.
They’ve put me in the corner…and I HATE cornertime!
Me too. We need to break you out!
What I should have said was, “Nobody puts Baby in a corner!”
They blocked you??? Nearest thing ever to formal recognition of success:-) Or naughtyness.
/sigh…it’s very annoying…
Thank you for having this little spot on the web for us to visit.
Thank you for visiting. 🙂
I am so glad you are becoming who you are!
So am I!
So tempted to send you an email since you put it up here… but I won’t. Because I just love to read about your life and times as they are. They ping into my phone every Monday. You are indeed brave… and I have felt every second of the loss of your Lion. You write so well. Your description of submissiveness is quintessential for me. It’s what makes it work… when it works! Still working on it… I couldn’t keep up my blog, so I really admire you doing yours nearly every day.
Thank you for your kind words. I don’t always feel very brave so I’m glad it comes across that way. You are free to email anytime you like. 🙂
Yes… that’s just it. The brave have the courage to admit they are NOT brave all the time….