I crave and yearn for submission. Not just the kinky, dirty sex. In this moment, it’s not about that. It’s the surrendering of my will. It’s the complete trust felt. It’s the loss of desire for control.
I’m a strong woman. I don’t need to be reminded of that. I live my life every day fully recognizing that I am capable of running my own life. I handle my business and deal with things that would make a lesser woman break down.
But the comfort, the safety, the sheer yearning for submission sneaks up on me. Today is one of those days.
This yearning – it makes me miss him. It makes me feel empty. It makes me feel like a limb is missing. I’m not whole. I’m not complete.
I can’t submit to just anyone. I can’t submit without full trust and love. I give too much of myself in submission – I realized that early on. I can’t be one of these women who submits to someone online. I can’t be one of many for a Dom. I have to be special. I have to be the one. I have to be genuinely loved.
Every cell in my body cries out for something I can’t have. There isn’t a way to replace it. No amount of masturbation, fantasies, reading, conversations can replace the yearning to submit.
Here I sit…yearning…craving…missing…needing…aching…alone.
I share your yearning
Best wishes that your certain someone comes along for you. It can happen when you least expect it…..
That’s how it happened last time…probably one of the many reasons why I miss it and him so much…
You never know whats around the next corner or through the next door.
That should probably comfort me…it just makes me nervous…I’m tired of hurting…and in love, for the past two years, everything has ended painfully…and still I’m left yearning…
I know the feeling, believe me I do.
That makes me sad for you…I wouldn’t wish that feeling on anyone…
Yearning what an amazing word. When a door closes a window opens somewhere..,maybe a little hard to find but it is there for you. Hugs!!!!!!
Aw… I wouldnt rush it but take your time. Because when the time is right it will happen 🙂
Nothing to rush…LOL…the sadness hits me sometimes…but that’s normal, I know…
I guess,the exact word to describe the feeling is the need to be loved or to feel loved!
That is very true.