February Photofest 2018

My Perspective: I Submit Because He is Worthy of My Submission

I submit to John Brownstone

I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding. ~Anais Nin

In places where I am called to lead, I lead. But when I trust and believe in someone who, even in his imperfections, does his best by me, then I choose to follow. To submit. To act as a supplicant.

But only because he is worthy of the honor.

By following him, submitting and serving, only then can I find the space in my mind and heart to grow, expand, reach for something better, and be more than I ever thought possible.

He does not make me do anything I don’t want to do, and he does not push me to do more than I am capable of. With his strength behind me, I find I am capable of more than I ever imagined.

I am not forced to me knees, told to bow, or made to submit. Each and every day, I choose it again and again, because each and every day, he proves he’s worthy of it.

February Photofest
John Brownstone and I have spent this February Photofest sharing our individual perspectives. Check out his blog to get another view.

About the author

Kayla Lords

I am a sex blogger, podcaster, freelance writer, international speaker, kink educator, and all-around kinky woman. You can find me online sharing my innermost sexual thoughts and experiences, teaching other bloggers how to make money writing about sex, and helping kinksters have happy healthy BDSM relationships. I'm also a masochistic babygirl submissive with an amazing and sadistic Daddy Dom and business partner, John Brownstone. Welcome to my kinky corner of the internet!


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