What I love about my journey through the BDSM lifestyle and as a submissive, as well as my ongoing kinky education in all things sex, is that all those fantasies that I used to harbor and never admit, are par for the course in this kinky corner of the world I’m discovering. I’m learning about fetishes that are so wild, by my own personal standards, that even my wildest fantasies seem tame in comparison.
Having opened my heart, mind, and soul to John Brownstone, I’m surprised to learn that we often share some fantasies. Fantasies that I thought made me deviant, and I’d never be able to admit to another soul. And then there are those fantasies that can probably never be explored, but I have them all the same.
I’ve been kidnapped by marauding pirates and locked in the dirty hull of a ship. I’m manhandled, my clothes ripped from my body. There are no soft touches or kind words. I’m a piece of meat to these men. Dirty men in a dirty ship. Quickly, I’m covered in filth and verbally degraded for it. After a late night of drinking and carousing, the men decide it’s time to play with their new toy – me.
You can imagine how the rest would end. The pirates/ship thing probably came from too many trashy romance novels as a kid. But the gangbang, forced humiliation and degradation part? That’s been an on-going dark fantasy of mine. Is it something that would ever actually come to light? Probably not, and that’s okay, too.
Tied to the bed. Blindfolded, spread wide, and vulnerable. I can hear the voice of my Dominant and others, strange men I don’t recognize. I’m ignored and untouched, until I’m not. I exist solely for the pleasure of these men. Hands touch my body. Cocks penetrate orifices. I am covered in sticky cum and sweat.
A newer fantasy of mine that comes on the heels of my education in BDSM and D/s. Yes, something like this is almost impossible to pull off – but I also trust Daddy. If he ever made the right connections in the lifestyle, I could probably be down for something like it. When I read Heather Cole’s own post (of the infamous Vagina Antics, y’all) about a slightly similar experience, I could relate so much to her desires and wonder if Daddy and I will ever get to such a place. We shall see.
Immobilized. Chained to a wall. Bent and spread so that every hole is available. No name. Only fucked by whoever walks in. Men, women, it matters not. Fucked with fingers, cocks, or toys. I don’t know or care.
Another dark fantasy that’s laid dormant in my mind for years – since before I reached adulthood. I never understood it – and I certainly never examined it closely enough to learn why. But I imagine it has to do with my slight humiliation and degradation fetish as well as my huge need to be controlled. (Rawr!)
A woman, curvy, soft, sassy and smart-assy. She laughs, teases, cares, and cries easily and has the ability to bring me out of my shell. She’s soft and warm. Adventurous. Open to anything. Submissive or not, it matters not. Sexual and into kink, she’s a bestie and a lover.
The tamest of my fantasies, I feel like it’s the hardest to attain. Can’t meet anyone if you never leave your house and if you refuse to speak to strangers. Just sayin’.
In conversations I’ve had with Daddy, I’m always surprised at how accepting he is of the things that float through my mind. We both know that the ability to make any of them a reality is difficult, but knowing that we share some desires and can still surprise each other with a few of our fantasies keeps us both on our toes. At least when we’re ready to try something new, it won’t be hard to convince the other that it’s a good idea.
Welcome to Wicked Wednesday! This week’s prompt was about trying something new. Daddy and I have been living a very vanilla life recently (thank you, Real Life) so it’s been a while since we experimented. But when we can get back to our kinky fuckery ways, at least we know we’re willing to try new things with the other.
I do love that we share so many fantasies and I look forward to the new ones we create along the way as well.
I’m looking forward to that, as well. Rawr!
I’m tickled that you liked my post, Kayla. I’ve received a lot of feedback about it, from men and women. I hit a fantasy button apparently for a lot of people.:-) I, too, have a similar female fantasy about a bestie and lover. But like you said, how can you meet new people if you never leave the house? That made me snort my coffee. So frickin’ true!
I loooooooooooved your post. I read it, shivered and squirmed in my chair, meant to comment, FORGOT to comment, and then remembered it quite clearly when I wrote this. 🙂
I’m a big believer in chemistry and vibes, and being the “typical” Scorpio I am, I can usually tell if there’s the potential for something (sexy or platonic) from the moment I meet someone. If there’s not, I don’t waste much more time on it, ya know? I met one person in real life that I could see a potential connection with, but she clearly wasn’t interested in anything past the surface stuff, so I left it alone. What I hate is that I’ve developed good connections with all kinds of amazing people online – and none of them live anywhere near me (typical, of course). So yes, I’m waiting for that unicorn of a person who drops in my lap without me having to leave the house. Thankfully, I don’t hold my breath while I wait. 😉
Sometimes when I read your posts, I sit here nodding my head, agreeing with everything you say. If I changed the names in this post to that of my Husband and myself, almost every word applies. The only place where it differs is that I go out and speak to people, but I still fantasize about meeting that special lady. And yes, even the last part, about a very vanilla life at this moment applies. But we are getting back to things 🙂
Lovely post and damn, don’t we have hot fantasies?
We DO have hot fantasies. Maybe we should write them down for others to read. 😉 /giggles
I’m ready to leave the vanilla bit behind for a while. Hopefully soon.
Hey, no fair stealing all of MY deep dark fantasies! I’m older… I had them first!! ( this may or may NOT have been accompanied by just the “slightest” stomp of the foot…)
/giggles. That’s the second time in a week I’ve “seen” you stomp your foot. Be careful, Peep, your babygirl is showing. 😉
I’m sensing a common thread among some of us, though. Hmmmmm…I may need to explore this further. 😀
Fantasys are healthy and to be welcomed, they can open our minds to possibilities that we otherwise could not consider and as we move into and out of relationships with different individuals we can sometimes explore these fantasies and what fun that can be… 😉
😀 Oh the fun to be bad…I can just imagine.
After spending so many years with those things locked in my head, it is strange to admit them publicly. No less strange to admit them to SSir, but it is a freeing thing to do, as well.
Bestie lover – on my list. Tied down and used – uh huh. Invisibility – oops, different kind of fantasy. Not fair that people live so far away. And now I’m pouting. It’s so good to be able to open up about fantasies and not be ashamed.
Awww, no pouting, but I understand the aggravation with it. I want to collect my friends and gather y’all into one place…sort of a D/s-utopia filled with kinky fuckery. Gosh, that sounds good. 🙂
There’s the subject of a eroticically kinky and fun filled book.
What a wonderful post, Kayla.
Fantasies are fundamental, in my opinion, to a healthy sexual self. They are a place for us to just let go, to experience – to be that little bit (dare I say) feral, without shame or judgement. I’m not sure if you saw Remittance Girl’s recent post on dark female fantasies, Bad Men and Why Perfectly Intelligent, Independent, Sane Women Fantasize About Them (http://remittancegirl.com/staging/discussions/bad-men-and-why-perfectly-intelligent-independent-sane-women-fantasize-about-them/), but it works as a lovely companion to this piece in my opinion.
Feral…that’s a perfect way to describe it.
I missed that post, but I’m glad to know it’s a common thing among us. 🙂
Very, very hot. I think it’s wonderful that you both share fantasies…and I have to admit, I have a bit of this marauder fantasy, too. Pirates…wow. So damn hot. Thank you for sharing your thoughts!
Arrrrr! /giggles I know the pirates thing stems from the old romance novel-reading days, but I don’t mind.
In RL, clearly I don’t want to give up consent, or be kidnapped and raped, but the fantasy is definitely hot.
Oh I have a few forced fantasies. For a long time the fantasies have been present.
I can understand that. I don’t really remember a time when I didn’t have a few of these fantasies. I’m sure there’s some reason psychoanalysts would give for it, but I’m gonna go with the need for control and being a highly sexual person. (Both of us, I mean.) 🙂
I just recently wrote of some of my darker fantasies, and love to read about others – since it seems like we often hide these thoughts if they don’t conform to “acceptable”. Quite a few delicious ones you detailed.
Why thank you. 🙂
I try to be as open as possible in my kinky corner and to not give a fuck about uptight opinions about what other people consider “acceptable” but like many people, I want to avoid rejection, condemnation, and harsh judgments. I think the day I can stop worrying about that and fully embrace baring even the darkest corners of my soul will be an amazing day indeed. 🙂
Phew I have a similar fantasy to the pirate one although could be classed as very dark as I have, in the past taken part in 1940’s re-enactment weekends and seeing a man or woman in a German uniform gets my mind whizzing off at a tangent!!! lol
One I really like that I have is my Dom/Master has taken me to a massage parlour for a sensual massage from more than one masseur and they take me to new heights!!
Ohhhh, I like the massage one. Rawr!
‘Forced’ or ‘shared’ fantasies are hot and I’m learning surprisingly more common than I realized. It speaks to a strong relationship when the Dominant and submissive can share these fantasies.
However, I often wonder does the submissive have these fantasies primarily to please her Dominant, because she knows it’s something he would enjoy watching, or is there some modicum of personal pleasure/gratification for the submissive?
I can only speak for myself, of course, but I’ve had all but the girl fantasy since before i knew what BDSM and D/s were, let alone had a Dominant. I’m sure there are some people who have fantasies born out of pleasing their Dom, but in this case, not so much.
In response to Will LaForge I know that I have had these fantasies for years the way the characters behave may change in my head and have also had different fantasies but never had them to please another person only ever for my own pleasure.
Glad you liked the massage one Kayla that is a particular favourite of mine and who knows maybe I may write it down one day as a story!!! However, I sometimes think if you write them down they become less of a fantasy – hope that bit makes sense.
Susan, I understand completely. Once you put your fantasy into concrete details, there’s no longer wiggle room for what they can be or what can happen – at least not in that particular version of the fantasy. The nice thing is you can always write a new one and change the details up a bit. 😀