Love me some InMon Prompt…
Lost in life, moving from one failed relationship to the next, searching for some unnamed, unknown thing, I found Him.
Desperate to release control, I handed it to Him. Trusting in Him to keep me safe, he showed me that pleasure and pain can be one and the same. They live together in my heart and body. Relinquishing control set me free.
Beautiful in his eyes, I bend to His will with no regrets. My body belongs to Him, and He cherishes it. In His care, my confidence in my beauty, my body, my self grows each day. I am a woman; I am His woman. Falling has been effortless; trusting has been gut-wrenching. Following my instinct never fails until my instinct pits me against years of ingrained doubt. How can something be wrong if it feels this right? How can something be wrong when it feels so natural? Like a snake that has shed her old skin, this new skin is tight and feels new, but it is as part of me as my brown eyes.
There is freedom in giving up control. There are those who can never understand – they believe giving over control means giving over one’s self, one’s identity. I am more in touch with who I am as a woman today than I was yesterday. Confidence blossoms bigger and brighter each day. Over-thinking no longer applies – I trust that the decisions made for me are the best. I have not been let down yet.
The lack of His presence fills me with dread – did I dream this? This can’t be real. Nothing should feel this effortless. Letting Him down can not be born; it is unthinkable.
I look forward to the pain He will introduce knowing that pleasure will follow. I am His to use for His pleasure and in His pleasure, I will find my own. He will stretch my limits but will not break them.
You who do not understand may call Him “monster,” but know this – the Monster saved me.
That was another excellent post today. You make it look so easy. Thanks so much for sharing. I really enjoyed reading it very much. Have a wonderful day!
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I like this. I think there’s power in relinquishing control.
I agree completely…
You’re sure you’ve never “done” this before???? Damn! This, from my end, reads very non-fiction.
Full disclosure – right at the time I started wondering about myself, I sort of “found” someone who gets me on nearly every level, including me as a submissive…it’s been enlightening to say the least…the full disclosure post is coming very soon…tonight, actually…
🙂 I am so happy for you!
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Thought-provoking. Got me thinking about Stockholm Syndrome, even if that wasn’t the intent.
Not the intent at all, but definitely an interesting perspective…
Now I’m actually thinking it reminds me of Till We Have Faces, by C.S. Lewis – a retelling of the myth of Cupid and Psyche. Really good book if you’re ever looking for something to read.
I will have to check that out…I’ve always liked C.S. Lewis…
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I don’t understand this submission, but I liked your writing style. Good work.. 🙂
By submission I mean your protagonist’s submission to the beast, not your post per se… just a disambiguation (in case required)… 🙂
I appreciate the feedback…I have to fight the urge to be overly vague at times…
It’s not vague at all. You wrote very well.
All I meant was that in principle I don’t adhere to the submissive behavior of the protagonist… I need to get better with my explaining! Sorry about all the confusion…
I liked your post, very nice writing style too… 🙂
Why thank you, and I understand that completely…submissive behavior is definitely not everyone’s thing. 🙂
You have set up your protagonist well. The scene is set. As a reader we know where she stands. We now need to meet the characters. But will we like them?
Wow, thank you for your insight. I’ve never taken one of these and developed them further – you’ve given me something to consider.