He leaves today – Sunday, January 5. And like all of the other tortures I endure with him, I have to help with this one too. I’m driving him to the airport today, and I’ve been crying on the inside since Friday. I cried myself to sleep Friday night, wrapped in arms, wrapped in the warm comfort of his love.
I’m not a patient woman. I want what I want when I want it. And whatever this is that we have together, I want it to be permanent NOW. He has a few things to take care of, as do I. Waiting a few more months makes sense. I’m all too aware that a lot can happen in a short amount of time and that time can pass in the blink of an eye.
I have no doubt that I’ll cry when I drop him off at the airport. I have no doubt I’ll cry tonight when I attempt to sleep, alone and cold in my bed.
The past two weeks have flown by, over much too soon.
It must be agonizing every time you drop him off. I nearly in tears myself when I read on one of your earlier posts that one of your boys started to cry when you all said goodbye. It sounds like this family needs to be together 🙂
I agree completely. And we do feel like a family. Strangers even mistake him for the boys’ father – and I smile each time it happens.
I just can’t bring myself to hit the like button on this post, and wish there was a dislike one available today. I am a lot like you about wanting something now, and not waiting, and when it comes to ones heart the wait can be excruciating. Hopefully your next visit is just around the corner, and I hope for you that time flies. Hang in there Kayla, summer will be here before you know it!
Love and hugs friend, Mynx
🙁 I had to pause too. I think we are all aching for you today Kayla.
I hoping for a Valentine’s visit, but we shall see – work schedules and finances and all.
It’s hard, and I try to disconnect my feelings a little bit, but I can’t when he’s sitting two feet away from me. I just want him to be with me. ((HUGS))
Hugs to you, lady. And patience too.
((HUGS)) Thank you.
Like the others said..’I feel your pain’, that sharp aching in your soul for him. I think we’ve all been there at some point. But of course you know how lucky you are to have him. . maybe blessed by karma is another way of seeing it.
The loss you felt when the first daddy left was acute and perhaps you felt there would not and could not ever be another for you. And now look! You have found a daddy who totally appreciates and adores you, and you get to SEE him and BE with him!
For a LTR you’ve been with him quite a bit –several visits including this of 2 weeks! And a future that looks shiny-bright.! Wow. {pulling for you as always} ♥ ♥
I meant LDR not LTR
I knew what you meant. 🙂
You’re right. I am very fortunate, and I never thought I could feel this way again.
I think I’ve been very spoiled with all the visits and that’s what makes this departure harder. For the first time in three months, we don’t know exactly when we’ll see one another again.
But, yes, the future is bright and shiny. ((HUGS))
It was over too soon but at least now we have a clear set plan and a timeline to truly begin to move forward.
And in my impatient little girl way, I want to make the plan happen NOW and I want to be at the end, already. 🙂
I can’t fathom a long distance relationship, specifically saying goodbye after a visit. I’m sure it’s beyond difficult. But patience will mine diamonds. And from what I’ve read from you and your Daddy, your future is filled with those sparkly suckers!! 😉
Saying good bye is the worst. But I do like diamonds. 🙂
You will see how rapidly time will fly and before you know it Sir will be carrying you over the threshold over your new home and a wonderful life will start. Those few months in between will make everything you both feel even stronger.
Franco
I sure hope so. I really do. Time flies, right?
Hang in there Kayla. I hated airports for several years. The distance strengthens relationships cuz you have to communicate.
Take care
Thank you. I feel like this will work…if I can just be patient. 🙂