I have loved with fiery passion. I have loved with ferocity. I have loved with all-consuming desire.
That is the love that I know and trust. That is the love that feels most real to me. Ahhh, but how things change…
This love sneaked up on me. This love slipped silently through imperceptible cracks in my walls. This love doesn’t burn – it cools and relaxes. This love is no fire; it is a cool ocean. In one moment, it is still and quiet, simply existing. In others, it rocks my body and my mind with wave after wave of emotion. Sometimes I feel like I may drown in it. At other times, I float along on top of it.
This quiet love scares me more than the fire. This love permeates through every part of me. This love allows me to, no – demands, that I think through my actions. This love will not countenance rash decisions or impulsive behavior. This love moves slowly, taking it’s time, knowing it needs nothing more than to exist.
This love does not destroy; it does not consume like fire. This love drifts, gently pounding against my walls, knowing that time alone will wear a path through which it can flow more easily. Right now, this love drips and dribbles in spurts. I foresee a time when it gushes and rolls through me, more powerful than any fire.
I am not so foolish that I don’t know that water can destroy as easily as fire. But the purpose of fire is to burn and destroy what was there in order to allow something new. Water’s purpose is to nourish and feed. Only when it comes too strong, too heavy, or too quickly does it destroy.
I won’t worry about the life-ending flood that may or may not tear down my banks. I will focus only on the gentle rolling of the waves while I float gently along.
Beautiful, enjoy the gentle embrace of the waves.
Benjamin
I’m trying. A mind that never stops thinking doesn’t make it easy, but I am trying.
Ha, I so understand that.
😉
B
Oh love, tell me more…..
In time, I will…
I can’t wait. I just LOVE your stories….
My dear you have captured it in perfect eloquence. Passion and fire are amazing in the moment but they leave nothing behind in its wake. And for the girl who finds her peace in water this speaks volumes to me. It is comforting and consuming in the most gentle of ways. It eats away slowl at the rough edges and leaves one beautiful smooth polished perfection in its wake.
I find my peace in water, as well. It’s why I chose that analogy. 🙂
I think the fiery love can last but only if both sides are equally combustible. So far, that hasn’t been my experience. I like this quiet, peaceful water.
I am happy for you in so many ways. To have the nurturing, support, constance and have it wrapped in the package of D/s is pretty damn awesome.
So much love to both of you.
Thank you. 🙂
That means more than you know.
You are very welcome.
So well expressed, and Powerful.
Thank you. 🙂
Water is. 🙂
🙂
As always a true gem. I wish I could write like you ! and of course we’re all dying to know more about this haha.
I know you are. I’m treating this a bit differently. For multiple reasons.
And you’re not so bad yourself, ya know! 🙂
and so happy for you.
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(((Kayla)))
I am smiling over the promise of your new adventure. 🙂
xoxo
So am I. 🙂
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xoxo
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I tried to comment earlier, but I think I was logged in with the wrong blog identity, so it probably went to “pending approval”. What I wanted to say was how happy I am for you both. I love your words. I love you. I love love!
I love you too!
What a beautiful analogy, water is calming and peaceful…the soft waves that gently lap around you enveloping you in their soft caress. True water can also be turbulent but if you are grounded in your D/s as well you can weather any storm. Enjoy your new found feeling let it grow and be nurturedhopefully to blossom into something beautiful.
Like I told said upstream somewhere (hehehe, another water analogy), I have one of those minds that never stops thinking, so it’s not too easy, but I will try. I’m trying to simply be.