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To My Single #Submissive Friends – Be Brave

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I worry for my single submissive friends. I worry for single submissives, in general. The submissives I’ve met have huge, generous hearts and an amazing capacity for love and devotion. But some of you put up with major crap in the name of love.

“I’m afraid to tell my Dominant [fill in the blank].”

“My Dominant doesn’t like it when I [add normal, healthy activities].”

“He isn’t interested in meeting my friends, and he wants me to stop [doing/going typical, healthy activities].”

“He has sex with other women – does that make us poly?”

“He’s uncomfortable with my friends – even though he doesn’t want to meet them.”

“He doesn’t return phone calls, texts, or emails for days. And he’s promised it won’t happen again – but then it does.”

That’s just the tip of the iceberg. It happens to so many submissives and in so many different ways – and to so many people that I like and respect.

The Drive to Submit

Here’s the thing: when you realize that you’re submissive, and you realize that what you need out of a partner is a Dominant, it becomes a major urge. Peep reblogged something called “sub frenzy” on her blog, and although I’m a couple years out of that time in my life, I recognized a lot of myself in the description. (Go read it, I’ll wait. If you’re submissive, you’ll probably see yourself in it, too.)

When I realized I was submissive, it was the missing puzzle piece of who I am finally clicking into place. A lot of the things I’d done over the years, the things I’d felt, the things I wanted – they all made more sense once I understood who and what I am. I knew, as a single woman, I needed and wanted a Dominant partner. I couldn’t be satisfied with anything less – I knew that because I never had been before.

Looking for relationships in this day and age is both harder and simpler than ever before. It’s easy because there are so many sites geared just to that and harder because it allows the posers, the creeps, the fakes, and the abusers easier access to people who are looking for love. Looking for love seems like it can be a full-time job with plenty of hazards.

A willing submissive, desperate to submit and feel complete, has her pick of places to find someone. And from what I can tell, all she has to do is put up a profile and the creeps come out of the wood works. She’s easy pickings for assholes and unhealthy relationships. To my single submissive friends – you deserve to be wooed. You deserve truth and honesty. You deserve great, amazing things. The Dominant who can’t do that for you is not worthy of your submission.

Submissives have this amazing capacity to give – it’s part of our nature. The problem, from what I’ve seen, is that we also give when we shouldn’t. Yes, submitting means giving up control and giving of ourselves on a level most can’t understand. In a D/s relationship, the Dominant’s first thought and care is supposed to the well-being of the submissive. Too many subs forget that the partnership between Dominant and submissive is equal but different. You give in your way, and a Dominant gives in their way. When you give more than you receive consistently, that’s not D/s and it’s not a healthy relationship.

Putting Aside Doubts and Questions in the Name of Submission

Here’s the deal, submission does not mean doormat. Submission does not mean meek or weak. Submission is earned – and it is earned every fucking day. Yes, yes, a submissive needs to be worthy of the Dominant, but never, ever forget that the Dominant must be worthy of the submissive, too.

Before you submit, that Dominant better spend some time becoming your friend first. He/she better get to know as much about your likes, dislikes, family, friends, history, and so much more before there’s ever talk about Dominance and submission. People “marvel” at the relationship John Brownstone and I have, that it seems so good and perfect. First of all, nothing is perfect and second of all, he became my best friend before the first sexual anything happened, before he Dominated me for the first time, before any of it. He knew as much about me as possible before we took the next step.

You cannot put aside every single doubt and question just to submit. You need to be filled with them, and the person vying to become your Dominant better be able to answer your questions and realize that doubts are healthy. No, Dominants aren’t perfect – they’re human. So are you. But both of you have to be completely comfortable in your relationship if it’s going to work.

When a Dominant doesn’t respond to you for days on end – you have every right to be upset and to question it. And to expect real answers.

When you feel you’re being lied to or mislead – you need to question it and demand answers. Lies and half-truths aren’t part of your dynamic. Only you can decide if you can forgive and move forward – but always, always confront the lies.

If your Dominant doesn’t want to know anyone in your life (especially in the name of privacy) – think long and hard before you accept that. I haven’t met a kinkster yet who doesn’t respect other people’s anonymity. And I question anyone who doesn’t want to be known by the people who may mean the most to you. My take on it is that they don’t want to be judged by your friends or family because they know they’ll be found wanting.

The only way D/s works is through communication. When you have questions or doubts, you must say something. If you can’t talk to your Dominant about everything (yes, actually I mean every single fucking thing), the dynamic, and ultimately, the relationship is doomed.

Fear

Here’s what I see (based on observations):

You’re afraid of being alone.

You’re afraid of never finding a good Dominant.

You’re afraid of being told you’re not a real submissive.

You’re afraid to ask the hard questions and say what you think.

It’s okay to be afraid. Every Dominant I’ve ever met that’s worth anything respects the fears of a submissive and is willing to overcome them.

But don’t accept less than you deserve out of fear. It’s better to be alone than in a bad relationship that makes you question everything and doubt yourself. It’s better to be alone than isolated from friends and family. It’s better to be alone than to be lied to about anything.

I know, I know, some of you are thinking it’s so easy for me because I have an amazing Daddy (and he is uh-maz-ing). But our relationship didn’t spring from the ground fully formed into what you see on the pages of this website. I made that poor man work damn hard to crack the walls I kept up between myself and all men. I spent time talking to several men while I was getting to know him because I was afraid of commitment. He didn’t just immediately email me and start dominating me. He isn’t that type and I wouldn’t have allowed it. Frankly, that poor man was questioned more by me in the first few months after we met than any FBI interrogator could ever do.

Look, we all come into potential relationships with whatever baggage we have left over from the previous relationships. Fear of rejection. Fear of being alone. Fear of heart break. Desperation to love and be loved. Whatever it is, it can’t be ignored. I get that.

The thing is, my heart hurts when I see what I consider to be very smart women making decisions not based on their own instincts (which are usually screaming at them) or by the information they themselves admit is good advice (the warnings about fake Doms, the red flags about abusers, etc.). The desperation to submit and feel complete as a human being is a real thing. The need and desire to submit is heady and intoxicating (I promise, I know how that feels). But none of that should trump your own independence as a human being, your own intellect, or your own instincts.

Question. Demand answers. Negotiate based on what you want and need out of a relationship. And sometimes, be brave enough to walk away from the one who’s not right for you. You deserve more than good enough. You deserve great. You deserve amazing. You deserve life-changing, mind-blowing, and all-consuming.

If I could wave my magic wand, you’d only meet good, strong Dominants who are willing to build something with you, who understand that D/s isn’t fantasy but the reality of two people building something together – and I’d grant you plenty of kinky sex. Since I can’t do that, I’ll ask for just one thing. Be brave. Be brave enough to stand up for yourself. Be brave enough to walk away from less than you deserve. Be brave enough to question and expect answers. The Dominant who is worthy of your submission won’t run away in fear – they’ll be brave with you.

 

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About the author

Kayla Lords

I am an erotic author, sex blogger, podcaster, freelance writer, and an opinionated marketer. I'm also a masochistic babygirl submissive with an amazing and sadistic Daddy Dom. Welcome to my kinky corner of the internet!

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