I don't like to be told no, even when I'm the one saying it. I washed my sheets yesterday - and reading any of my posts from this week, you know why - but I especially washed them yesterday because family came to town today, and I always give up my bed to my parents. And the last thing I needed was for my bed to smell of come. Either they would wonder what the hell was wrong with my room and what the smell was - or they'd know exactly what it was, and I would have to curl up and die of embarrassment. So, into the washer went the sheets.
I told myself last night to leave me alone. I can go two nights without a puddle - it's not a sacrifice. Except, the moment I said no, I wanted it more than I ever had. On a whim, I decided to watch myself.
I laid a quilt over the sheets. The same quilt I'm using tonight - because I like the idea of smelling myself. Yes, I will wash it this weekend. I didn't have a small mirror but necessity is the mother of invention, and my phone let's me flip the camera to look at myself. So I did what any horny, freaky, single woman would do. I turned the camera around to the self-shot view and moved in for a close up.
It was amazing.
I watched my fingers stroke my pussy. I saw the sheen from the juices. I saw my labia swell. It changed from dusky color to pink to dark pink as the blood flow increased. I watched as my pussy convulsed and opened. I watched the come drip out of my body. Fascinated at the sight of myself, I continued to look and stare long after I came and arousal gave way to relaxation.
How had I ever thought such a beautiful part of my body should be hidden away - from myself?